Sequin Covered Swans

I love October. October happens to be in the title of my autobiography - "Feeling October".

The only copy of "Feeling October" is on a 3.5in floppy that looks something similar to the above image.

Does anyone have anything that can read this? I would love to transfer the copy to like my gmail or something. ;)

As time goes on I am becoming way more excited about my life. I am hearkening back to memory about what Feeling October is about. It is mostly a very emo-inspired piece from 2001 - emo was huge back then, so give me a little credit - and I think I stopped writing in it around 2003.

This weekend was, so, weird. I did nothing. Literally, nothing. I laid on my bed and listened to the Klaxsons - So Above, So Below on repeat. I am not sure how long this continued. I know I got lost in some weird internal battle about time. Like, why is time in increments of 60 - ie 60 secs in 1 min, 60 mins in one hour, yet we don't have 60 hours in one day? I don't know what would happen if we have 60 hours in a day.

Then I drifted onto thoughts about the innocence of kissing. People do not talk about this anymore. I never hear about anyone going out on a date and having a great goodnight kiss. (or any for that matter) I am sure it happens, but why is this not discussed? I saw a great kiss out of my rear view window while I was driving today. The couple was on either side of the street, about to cross. As I pass through the yellow light, I saw them meet in the middle of the street and share a quick, yet passionate (as far as I could tell) kiss. It was so amazing - I wish that my eyes were video cameras so I could have a copy. It would have made an excellent scene in a music video.

Then I thought about my dream of creating/producing music videos. While every cell in my body is strongly devoted to my current employer (as well as every item of anything in my room - chairs, blankets, cups, hats, playcards, bike helmets, shirts, pants, sweatshirts, ipod speakers, ipod stickers, magnets, coffee mugs, beach towels, I could go on) I used to be creative. I used to have these amazing thoughts, and I would write them down.

Now I am so busy that I barely have a thought that doesn't revolve around my job, how to be better at my job, how to make myself stand out at work, and then the little portion left tries to love family, friends, and find out who I am in God's family. I think my thought distribution is a little out of whack.

I want to feel October again. Don't get me wrong - I absolutely love my life. It is everything I wanted as a little girl. I have moments when I walk out my front door and I just smile and laugh because when I was 11 this is what I saw. I am here. I made it. And it is great. I don't want to go back at all. I want to keep moving forward. I want to keep exploring the mystery.

So do you have a floppy drive I could borrow? I really need to feel October.

stay on my side tonight....

and for my fave jew song...

when you kiss me...whoa - o- oh

I LOVE when JEW plays sweetness live and changes the lyrics to "when you kiss me" - so awesome. See an awesome performance here....

Vacation Day 13 of 16

This is the only picture I have of BH and I together in Budapest.

I had a fun time...It was very mellow and a mix of a ton of walking and lots of good relaxing.

Here are some of my fave pictures. The final unveiling of the Picasa Web Album will come once I exchange pics with bh.

Picture with Lyrics that I like:


Picture 1:


Camera Obscura - Let's Get Out of This Country - lyric " Let’s get out of this country
I’ll admit I am bored with me"


Picture 2:


Rilo Kiley - Spectacular Views - lyric " and we want spectacular views
if we're to stay for the weekend"

Picture 3:


Jack's Mannequin - Bruised - lyric "We stood like statues at the gate/Vacation's come and gone too late/There's so much sun where I'm from"

This Girl - aka Vacation Day 3

"This girl tries her best everyday,
But it's all gone to waste 'cause there's no one around,
This girl she can draw she can paint,
Likes to dance she can skate,
Now she don't make a sound."

I like James Morrison. A little star 98.7, but still, really good.

Vacation Day three has come and gone - tomorrow I leave for Budapest. I am so excited. I am ready to test out this Hungarian coffee that seems to be all the rage on the blogs.

Hallelujah it's raining (rain) - Day 1

Fall has arrived.

Time to bust out the Jose Gonzales albums, the Sufjan, the dcfc, the postal service, the band of horses, etc. Time to put away the sounds of summer and move toward the melancholy fall tunes.
It is raining. I am pretty much bored out of my mind. Note - it has only been about 20 hours since I have been on vacation. This is the decompression period.

Today is vacation day 1. I have NOTHING to do.

I have no work to do for work, no laundry, no cleaning, I am essentially packed for my trip, I have seen all my DVD's, I am not hungry - I don't know what the heck to do.

If I knew how to thread my sewing machine I could start doing that. But that requires me to do a lot of learning, and all the online guides that I have read are really complicated. I may sew my finger to the thing....

4 days until Budapest.

the hills are alive with the sound of music

I am really digging this "not being busy" life style.

It is pretty hard on my body though. Three weeks ago I gave up caffeine. The headaches have *finally* gone away.

I am thoroughly going through some serious decompression. Running at the speed of light, then slowly down even slightly causes some readjustments physically to your body. Your body works so hard for so long to keep up, that when you give it even a second to breathe it just sort of falls apart.

So here I sit - caffeine free tea in hand - watching for quite possibly the 70+ time "The Sound of Music." There is no better comfort movie on earth for me than this.

In the summer of '96 I had my wisdom teeth removed. They were not impacted so it was a pretty rough recovery. That story is quite possibly one of my most hilarious medical experiences, but I will save that for another time.

Anyway, summer of '96, I think I watched the Sound of Music 40+ times. I pretty much wore out the first VHS tape. (because the first one was the fun part of the movie, the second tape was too serious...)

There were days I watched it twice. Oh, the days before we had the internet! ;)

10 days until Budapest.