i promised i'd see it again. i promised i'd see this with you now

Jimmy Eat World. 9 years of my life I have emptied out my soul on paper and screen while listening to this band.

I have no idea how many times I have seen them live - maybe 8 times?

Only two bands bring such an intense excitement for a new release: JEW and Better than Ezra.

We are going to budapest in 27 days.

I can't wait! A new city, excitement, rest, adventure, journal time, plane rides, exploration - divine!

How I Feel

Looks like I made a mess again
Heartbreak everywhere I step
This fire is getting hot again
But I touch the flame ‘cause I’m a curious cat
Creeping where I don’t belong
Finding out what I knew all along
Crying all alone
And it’s all my fault, all my fault

Yeah, I did it again...again

Oh, I’m getting tired of believing
Even sicker of pretending
That it’s not so bad, just wait it out
Oh, I think you’re feeding me lies again
The only good man left wasn’t him
And that’s how I feel right now so just let me be
Let me be

It seems every time I find a good man
He’s got a good little wife
I’m not jealous but I won’t lie
I don’t want to hear about your wonderful life
And babies everywhere I look
Trophy wives with their little black books
At this rate I’m gonna end up alone
It’s probably all my fault, all my fault

moving on

Today I moved. on. and to a new location.

Moving is so exhasting.

However...

I now have a canoe in my backyard. And a river. Um, well ,a wetland. A swan (or really huge white bird) swam by while I was unpacking. I went for a nice paddle around the wetland today with a friend. Some 8-10 year old girls came on to their dock and screamed "how romantic!" at the top of their lungs. Awkwardness was to follow.

Now, to make this fantasy complete I need to meet a boy at the end of the canal (and instead of walking) I can canoe to his dock and hang out. It would be my ulitmate Dawson's Creek fantasy played out.

Waltz No 2 (XO) - Elliot Smith

"In the place where I make no mistakes
In the place where I have what it takes
I'm never gonna know you now, but I'm gonna love you anyhow..."

An oldie, but a goodie - haven't listened to Elliot Smith in awhile, and it sounds extra good tonight. Now I really want to watch the Royal Tennebaums....

Songs on deck right now:

Elliot Smith - Waltz No 2
Jeff Buckley - Lover, You Should of Come Over
Cat Stephens - The Wind
Cake - Mexico
Oingo Boingo - Stay

must be a different view to be a me with a you

i wanna know what's its like on the inside of love. of course, I'll be alright. I just had a bad night. I had a bad night.....

Songs about Decisions - good and poor

1. Tonic - you wanted more
2. Dave Matthews - Grey Street
3. Panic at the Disco - I write sins not tragedies
4. Nada Surf - Inside of Love
5. Nada Surf - Always Love
6. Jimmy Eat World - Work
7. Something Corporate - I want to save you
8. My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words
9. Sam Cooke - A Change is Gonna Come
10. The Knife - Heartbeats

one night, yeah, one more time, thanks for the memories

he tastes like you , only sweeter.